4/23/2006
Glimpses
I have been near tears all day. Every little thing has meant so much to me. I feel like everything that has happened today has been for a reason. I’ve never felt so strongly my Savior’s love in every moment of this day. I feel like I’ve just had a near death experience because I feel like my life focus has changed. I feel like I need to cherish every moment I have and be the best person I can be. I feel as though death is coming quickly and if I don’t utilize every moment I’m going to run out of time. However, I may not die for years and years, but within me is an urgency to live without regrets—to live every moment to the fullest—to love with all my heart, to dance every dance, to give my life to others, to laugh harder, to reach higher, and then do it all over again and again. There is not enough time to hold in anger or resentment. It’s time I remembered who I once was, and do something to be her once again.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
5 comments:
What's this? Kami, I had no idea you had a blog! I am super excited.
Oh yeah. And Kami . . . "I hope you Dance."
Kamster... sometimes feeling so close to the Lord is all you ever want. I never get that because I am a demon. I mean... a person. You are grand! Love ya
Reading this blog made me miss you kids a ton. It has been good to see that life still goes on in America. It seems so strange to be so far away - you get to a point where you don't really believe that it exists anymore. Or maybe that is exists, but it stops having meaning; you become numb to it all. Not that you want it to stop, because that is the last thing that you want, but it is just too hard to let your mind know that it is all still there and you are not. Your life becomes a lovely fairytail in the back of your mind and the happy ending is when you (the beautiful princess;)) get to go back and join all of the people that you love and left so far behind - if they are still there. And all you can do is see how you can make the next day more interesting then the last to keep the readers interested until you finally get to the climax and then the end. Then open another book and start all over .... (sigh) Life. But the point of all this is that I love you so much. And I will be home in 8 months and you will all become real again. Keep up the good work.Until we meet again!
Britt, did I ever tell you I'm a terrible dancer, but for you I will dance my heart out.
Kate, your the one who taught me to reach higher, so as for you being a demon--I'm not so sure. Besides I thought I was the bad guy (Sloan). You cannot play out of character. My rules.
Ven, I want you to start pretending I'm always with you like Fedina and Fuducka. Even though you can't see us, we're always there. We're real people, stop saying we're not.
Kami, did you know it doesn't matter if your a terrible dancer, and that's the point!!!
I always kind of thought that Leann Womack song was a little annoying because they played it on the radio like every five minutes. But when you listen to the words it's hard to find another song that can compare to it. It's a great message. Every line of it.
Today I'm feeling like my favorite line is "Never settle for the path of least resistance." It's a good line. And considering my life's events of the last two months I espeically love it. Resistance is good. Kind of sucks at first, but makes you stronger.
I'm glad that you had the experience you did on Sunday. I'm sure it wasn't the first, and I'm sure it won't be the last. Sometimes I we need a refresher to get our lives and out attitudes toward life in check.
And lastly, to follow up on your second to last sentence . . .
You're right. There isn't enough time to hold in anger or resentment. The world has too much to offer.
There are too many people too angry at a world that isn't in the least bit angry at them.
Live it up Kam. The glass is half full.
I love you! And I love Kate. And I love Venita. You guys have all tought me valuable life lessons. You're so great. This is great. We're great. Hooray for greatness.
Post a Comment