I visited Stacy today at her new apartment. It was one of those visits you don’t really want to do because you knew it would be awkward for both of you. I took her a house-warming gift which consisted of a box of Kettle Corn and a genuine Kami made card. When I walked in she was putting up the final furnishings up in her room. Although the room was almost complete the room radiated a feeling of emptiness. I gave her the welcoming gifts and we began small talking. Soon the conversation inevitably turned to the recent death of her best friend Brittney of 10ish years. As she talked of the friendship they had and the greatness of her friend tears welded up in her eyes. I wanted to cry so bad, but I held it in because I’m an idiot and do that. She talked about the last minutes she spent with Brittney and the unrealisticness of her death. And how the day she found out about her death, she still waited for a phone call from her. I imagined the effect this tragic event would have in my life. I hated it. I hated this feeling of sadness. I wanted to comfort Stacy, but I didn’t know how. So I left. I left and promised we’d hang out all the time to help with the loneliness of the death of her roommate and best friend. While driving my eyes began to water, and I pondered on my feelings. And I heard the song “We can be Together Forever One Day” come on the radio by Michael McLean. Something I needed. Powerful. The Lord knows who I am and what I needed at that time. He was the only one who could provide me comfort at that time, and so it is with Stacy too. I have been so lucky to be with the people I’ve been with thus far in my life.
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Weird, this week I was totally freaked out by the thought of someone close to me dying while I am here in Russia. I don't think that I could handle having someone passing away, especially when I could not be there to say goodbye or even see them again in this life. Just thinking about it I wanted to cry too. It is completely out of my control and I hate that. To everyone that I love so dear: DO NOT DIE!
Venita, your funny. Thanks for posting on my blog so much. I almost want to do it more just because I know you love me so much and you don't get to be with me all the time. But you want to because your my sister and I love you even more and I want you to be in my life all the time too.
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