haha kami w/ makeup meets shoes in tree kami

My Sizzling Sister in Russia

Aaahhh

I'm currently going insane and I must leave Rexburg.......right now.......muhahaha.......

Life should resemble a soccer game

No fear--bold anticipation.
No pain--pure focus.
Mistakes planting desire.
Instinctive steps.
Giving my best.
Realizing my best today is better than yesterday's.
Living, breathing, working.
Honesty, loyalty, love.
Less talking, more doing.
An individual, a team.
Leave your baggage at the gate
And your shoes on the field
Cuz life doesn't get any better than this.

To quit or not to quit, that is the question????

Lucky

Yesterday, while eating trail mix, I didn't find a single raisin in my whole cup. I thought I was so lucky because I hate raisins. Then I remembered the person sitting next to me is allergic to chocolate. I reminded him of this and he gave me all his chocolate chips, and that's when I knew it was a good day.

Don't be afraid

I just watched half of the scariest movie ever because I was too scared to finish it, and I am now wide awake, listening to church music, praying for peace, and reminiscing the past. I wish I was a better person, but all I can do is press forward one step at a time. I'm a slow learner, yet I still have the ability to change myself. Amazing. Sometimes I don't think I deserve to know or be close to people because I cause them a lot of pain. I want to be perfect for them because they deserve someone great and naturally I'm not so I get mad and eventually I give up...dumb huh. Kami, don't be afraid to fail. Not only with people but with the experiences in life. Failure can lead to determination, satisfaction, and a whole lot of knowledge.

"Attitude reflects leadership...Captain"

"Somebody To Do For"

--Shortly after the funeral held for the first wife of President Harold B. Lee, someone expressed sympathy to his daughter Helen for the passing of her mother and said: "She took such good care of your father. I'm sure he must be lonely and must miss all the things she did for him."
--Helen responded with an insight of remarkable wisdom. " You do not understand," she said. It is not so much that he misses all of the things that Mother did for him. He misses her most because he needs somebody to do for."
--We all need somebody to do for. When that is unfulfilled as a need, we become lonely.
-Boyd K. Packer

Venita we see the same sun!!!

Pictured above is our Sun in three colors of ultraviolet light. Since only active regions emit significant amounts of energetic ultraviolet light, most of the Sun appears dark. The colorful portions glow spectacularly, pinpointing the Sun's hottest and most violent regions.

My Conscience

You know how most people feel the Holy Ghost in their heart, well tonight I have a confession. Sometimes because I'm a some what heartless fool, I feel him in my bladder. Yes, my bladder. Almost every time I convince myself to do a mischievous, rash idea and am at the brink of accomplishing such plans, I suddenly get an overwhelming feeling that I need to go pee (yeah, and I can barely hold it). So then my plan gets thwarted until I can locate a bathroom, and by that time I've realized the stupidity of the prior plan and I've already conceived a new plan and completely forgotten about my desire to go pee. It's ridiculous. I must not listen to my heart very well, but I sure listen to my bladder.

Last night while driving home, I was inspired to turn off the radio. Soon I became enveloped in millions of joyous thoughts and concepts of my life thus far. I am grateful for a living breathing body. I love it. I am grateful for my trials which can also be looked at as opportunities. I'm grateful for my family and their endless love for me even when I'm crazy, grouchy, tired, silly, and stupid. I love their amazing examples to me and their genuine friendships.
I followed the sunset last night and the whole time I was filled with an overwhelming amount of peace. I reminiced about past experiences and I remembered how much I truly love my imagination. I delight in not knowing what the future holds for me. It's great, I could do and become anything at this point in my life, and this unknow can be a little frustrating but still how lucky I am to be able to choose.
And at the end of all these wonderful thoughts I remembered riding the bus for hours. I don't know why this thought came to me but it did. And I even became grateful for Mrs. Moser and her crazy stand up hair who yelled at us everyday, and who would not change the bus route to drop us off any earlier because we were really her favorites but she never admitted it--she retired after we stopped riding. ahh--enough

"Oh...Delightful"

It's about Connor peeing in the sandbox.
It's about losing children.
It's about Christopher's cute little laugh.
It's about Sid the sloth doing a fatal back flip while demonstrating the new Willy Wonka's theme song.

It's about the funny ideas and comments the kids come up with daily.

It's about singing a made up song as the kids jump on the jumping mat--it wasn't a very good punishment, we all enjoyed it too much.

It's about Kacie and her inward lonliness converting to outward hatred.
It's about Chase's non-compliance and yelling throughout class period in search for any kind of attention.
It's about Makyra coming to school every day with her clothes dirty, her hair tangled, she's drenched in smoke, and has almost no ability to communicate verbally with anyone.
It's about the girl, who looks like I did when I was little, causing me to reflect back on my own childhood--Man my life's been pretty good.

Yippee (haha funny word)

DAVID comes home in 24 days

VENITA comes home in less than 7 months

and a random cow picture...

Quotes of the Day

"The finest gift you can give anyone is encouragement. Yet, almost no one gets the encouragement they need to grow to their full potential. If everyone received the encouragement they need to grow, the genius in most everyone would blossom and the world would produce abundance beyond our wildest dreams."
- Sidney Madwed

"The most exciting breakthrough of the 21st century will occur not because of technology, but because of an expanding concept of what it means to be human."
– John Naisbitt, Megatrends 2000

We Will Be Together Forever One Day

I visited Stacy today at her new apartment. It was one of those visits you don’t really want to do because you knew it would be awkward for both of you. I took her a house-warming gift which consisted of a box of Kettle Corn and a genuine Kami made card. When I walked in she was putting up the final furnishings up in her room. Although the room was almost complete the room radiated a feeling of emptiness. I gave her the welcoming gifts and we began small talking. Soon the conversation inevitably turned to the recent death of her best friend Brittney of 10ish years. As she talked of the friendship they had and the greatness of her friend tears welded up in her eyes. I wanted to cry so bad, but I held it in because I’m an idiot and do that. She talked about the last minutes she spent with Brittney and the unrealisticness of her death. And how the day she found out about her death, she still waited for a phone call from her. I imagined the effect this tragic event would have in my life. I hated it. I hated this feeling of sadness. I wanted to comfort Stacy, but I didn’t know how. So I left. I left and promised we’d hang out all the time to help with the loneliness of the death of her roommate and best friend. While driving my eyes began to water, and I pondered on my feelings. And I heard the song “We can be Together Forever One Day” come on the radio by Michael McLean. Something I needed. Powerful. The Lord knows who I am and what I needed at that time. He was the only one who could provide me comfort at that time, and so it is with Stacy too. I have been so lucky to be with the people I’ve been with thus far in my life.

Shoshone Falls

Visited them last Saturday night at 9:30pm. There's tons of water, incredible sight. Every time I visit I have a strong impulse to jump in. Most people are scared they'll fall, I'm scared I'll leap willingly. Not that I want to die, it just seems too beautiful to be harmful and I want to be part of it. Weird.