I think it's tiiime--for the Summer

My nephew's face is awesome. Both my nephews went down about a zillion times. Yeah. My uncle rebuilt this slide in his back yard. It's pretty sweet.


Check it out!!! My baby sister is drowning in the pool. Too bad it's only 4 feet deep, there must be a shark below.

Glimpses

I have been near tears all day. Every little thing has meant so much to me. I feel like everything that has happened today has been for a reason. I’ve never felt so strongly my Savior’s love in every moment of this day. I feel like I’ve just had a near death experience because I feel like my life focus has changed. I feel like I need to cherish every moment I have and be the best person I can be. I feel as though death is coming quickly and if I don’t utilize every moment I’m going to run out of time. However, I may not die for years and years, but within me is an urgency to live without regrets—to live every moment to the fullest—to love with all my heart, to dance every dance, to give my life to others, to laugh harder, to reach higher, and then do it all over again and again. There is not enough time to hold in anger or resentment. It’s time I remembered who I once was, and do something to be her once again.

At Church Thought

What people say to me when they, come into my life:
I was sent to you for a reason,
So why won't you let me in to help you.
Our time together is short,
And I'll try to make the best of it.
At times the road we're on will seem tough,
You'll probably want to give up.
Some things I say or do might hurt you,
And I know I won't be able to heal all the pain you feel,
but I will be there as much as I can.
And please remember you were sent to me for a reason as well.
I need you just as much as you need me.

My Reply:
Thank you so much for helping me to become a better person.
I wish I could be more than I am,
But I will strive to be my best for you.
I only wish I could give to you as much as you give to me.
I know you deserve somone better than me in your life.
Thank you, though, for being a part of my journey.
You've made it beyond enjoyable.
-To so many, many people

MRI:My Rheumatism Image

To be foretold later today. Scared: a wee bit. I made up the definition in the title. I used a dictionary. Rheumatism: Any of several pathological conditions of the muscles, tendons, joints, bones, or nerves, characterized by discomfort and disability. Maybe I'll find being practically exposed in a tight, enclosed space brings about personal revelations. Look I'm already nervous, everything I write is al ust ramblings. Whew, wish me luck in the tomb of doom.

My Grandma's Closet...

Last semester I had a teacher tell me to take a picture of my wardrobe. He told me that in years to come I will love to look back and reminisce about styles and the sentimental values the clothes had to me. He also suggested we take pictures of our cd's and just things like this that make us who we are. He said we'd forget about these simple things and later on in life we'd love to see who we use. I'm sure my kids would think it was cool too, haha. This teacher has great insights into life so I took his advice.

Hmm...

My old crushes older brother. I couldn't find a picture of him, but this kind of looks like him. I just decided that one day me and this crush will get married. jk. Funny story, good times.

Oh snow

Normally, I don't enjoy waking up to snow. But recently I love it. It makes my day to wake up and see snow and realized the unpredictability of life. You can plan the whole day's activities only to wake up and find the weather has made another plan for your day. Then you can be mad or make the best of the day. Life is the same way. I don't know where my life is heading, but when I do make plans they always seem to get changed. Most of the time it's not until the very momenet I do something that I know I'm going to do it. And usually I end up doing things I never would have chose to do, but I can either be angry at the world or make the best of the experience I've been given. The weather has taught me that despite my own plans for life, God has the ultimate say in my circumstances. Then I get to decide what to make of the unexpected environment encircling about me. I love the crazy weather because I am the weather.

This is who I am

While browsing through thousands of songs on Kate’s computer I came across a song that described what I felt at that moment in a weird sort of way:
“I’m walking down Broadway. Each footstep is a new love letter. I try to make eye contact with each and every stranger that I pass. I’m thinking about the city, it’s living proof that people need to be together. I’m thinking about how I just want to open up and give and give and give. And it’s okay for you to care. Cuz I can feel you in the air. While you wonder, how’s this going to end. I only wanted to begin…”
Lately I’ve been finding I have a hard time finishing things. I begin books and after getting half way through them I stop reading them. I watch movies or television shows, and I fall asleep or I leave before the end. I hate seeing things end—good things and bad especially in relationships with people. I don’t open up to very many people, but when I do I’ve noticed I give them my whole heart. Even if they don’t know it, they truly hold it. I don’t know why I do this, it’s just something I brought with me. It’s who I am. And at our departure my soul is torn beyond belief. I know I’ll see them again, but I can never live those memories over again. Sometimes it hurts so bad that I’ll go to the point of avoiding contact with them until I feel the wound has developed a scab or a protection over it. I love that person forever because touched my life for the good. Even if they I don't show it very well, these people always hold a special place in my heart. Thank you.

Living It Up

Soccer

In the end, I loved knowing I pushed myself beyond my limits in every minute of the every game. Through the tears and the pain, the drive to succeed surged through me. Win or lose, I never felt like a victor. Frustration overwhelmed me as I reevaluated every mistake I made. In a loss, I always took full responsibility because I knew I could have done better. Daily, I find myself in this same strenuous predicament. Will this unrealistic drive within me ever cease.

Lost

It's as though I am completely uncapable of determining my future. Thus fathoming fish came about. Lately fish have become a large part of my life. "Finding Fish" the book, "Take This Fish and Look At It" article by Samuel H. Scudder, Fly fishing, learning to swim, getting a pet fish, eating sushi and salmon, learning about fishers of men in the scriptures. They all have such great symbolism into life's mysteries. It's like they're creating a small light into my future life. And before all these random mishaps, I took a strange liking to the word fish. I'm intrigued where life will lead me. A bit fishy aye.